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tommorrow is THE DAY....

WE PRESENT OUR THESIS TO UNIVERSITY OF PENNSYLVANIA PROFESSORS AND CRITICS @ 10AM AND THERE IS NO LOOKING BACK NOW!!!!

HOLY SH*T AM I NERVOUS RIGHT NOW!!!!

at this moment i have the urge to cry, faint, hyperventalate, and vomit all at the same time....

these are my worst fears...if i can write them out then maybe they won't happen...

what are they going to say?(fear: they start laughing and then tell me that i sound like a 5 year old presenting this thesis, and i should just sit back down...oh, well it's good you are going back to tulane, because you could never make it here at penn.... i really feel that you don't fully understand a dynamic system and i would be cautious as to proceeding with the design studio next semester... now explain to us why that diagram looks so elementary....you really should be more rigorous with your research... )

what questions should i anticipate?(fear: did you seriously research this? because it seems like you didn't... so do you really expect to graduate by proceeding with this project?? why didn't you look more into so and so's writings?? it doesn't seem like you are really tapping into all of the resources here...)

i am soo nervous about tommorrow and i don't even know what i'm going to say yet....i've worked on this project all semester and i can absolutely see myself tommorrow getting stage fright, and just standing up in front of 5 jurors with a dumbfounded look on my face, my mind completely blank, stuttering(which i sometimes do when speaking in front of people), and shakily holding my notes...staring at them but being so nervous, stressed out, and without sleep that i can't even read english anymore....

should i dress up since this is a final reveiw...even though it's power point?? what if i dress up and the other kids don't....will i feel really out of place??
....so writing this out and really thinking about this freaked me out enough to where i had to go talk to my studio neighbors and ask them about the profs on the jury tommorrow....and i feel better....just hope the feeling lasts until after my review tommorrow..

wish me luck kids...i really need it right now...

song of the day: "livin on a prayer"--bon jovi

posted by ekeith @ 7:36 PM