My 2 weeks notice....the joy and the AFTERMATH!!!i've given my "2 weeks notice" to my professor, the client and all those involved with the project and of course the freak-out occured where they were willing to barter cheap favors for me to stay....uuummm....not so much...thanks...i'll move back in with my parents before i WILLINGLY live in what is tant amount to a halfway house for drug addicts....thanks though...such a kind offer.....
so now verderber[my professor] is riding my ass like a pony in the kentucky derby about trying to finish the WHOLE LEED APPLICATION in 2 weeks....
uuummm yeah....again....not so much....
i've got a couple of phrases that will answer why:
calculus equations, files from the engineers, and 28 VERY detailed points....
basically in the next 2 weeks as i am sitting in front of paperwork and a computer late into the evening visions of damaged effigies of verderber will be dancing in my head....
i'm highly considering fashioning a home-made pinata of him and filling it with little bottles of alcohol--like the kind you would get in your hotel room bar--for my last day....
[please note...i am alot of talk when it comes to "evildoing" and very,very little, if any, action....but thoughts of it sustain my time in this crappy job....]
ps: did you know that they make a pinata of SANTA???!!!! beating santa with a stick until candy comes out.....why does this disturb me.....and why is the movie children of the corn coming to mind....
Random Tangent #242: "We come from France"
Dear online diary...
since our relationship has down graded from a school driven blog into one that i just post random crap in the transition of my finishing my portfolio, resume, moving back to texas and getting a job i just figured the jig was up and that i should admit that you are my online mental garage sale....
5 cents for the whole box....
we are all in a state of transition...from one thing to the next all the time...and i don' t mean that shifting of mental gears from the time you leave your job to the time you are sitting and eating dinner and catching up on the news of the day--i mean that life shift...that place where things aren't quite as steady as they always seemed to be....and being right smack dab in the middle of it--almost to the point where i feel my mentality existing in 2 states simultaneously--
i am almost wondering if there ever WAS that place where things were steady....i wonder if we convince ourselves of "steadiness" in our lives and it's actually always shifting, granted sometimes the shift is imperceptible at the time, but it's always building up to something or tearing down or shifting....like air currents...Ethereal and yet the effects are tangible and able to be recorded...
and i'm right there.
between here and there....that spectrum of gray space....Interstitial....Nebulous...
between making a choice, between making a move....
the weirdest part is that although i feel like i have alot on the line...i have everything on the line right now and that is no exaggeration--personal life, professional life, objects, ideas, people..... for one of the first times in my life i have all my money on the table and in play, i could be hitchhiking home with a towel around me-- i've almost become used to it.....it's almost....preternatural.....to me now....maybe....maybe not...behind it i do crave stability in my life to point where it is almost real to me and i can touch it...almost...
it's almost like the whole of the last year of my life has gotten me ready for this hazy fog that i exist in right now.....
the moving across the country, the shifting alliances between people i know and care for, the crazy expectations of my mental flexibility in random situations that have come up here and there....those were all preparing me for this place. this existence. this state. this shift.
with all this shifting i'm actually having dreams again...almost every night now...but they are always set in france...
paris, the countryside, various medieval churches, on trains traveling through france, in the middle of french vineyards...in the woods in france....
various time periods: modern, the dark ages, victorian times...
it's all really odd and yet it seems to explain this shifting within and around me....
why france though....hhhhmmmm....
i could go for france.
ps. on this fabulous saturday with a 50% chance of rain i am still sitting here in my pjs at 1pm with a cup of coffee a light lunch and watching the movie hackers.....it's a good day to lounge in bed....lounge....even the word seems to just roll off the tongue....lounge.... =)
TO DO LIST BY 3:30PM on Wednesday:-pack for NYC--abby, ready or not here i come!!! =)
***remember to pack: *umbrella--NYC heat is giving over to torrential rains..*my dancin shoes--cause we about to get funky a la new york city baby!!*black clothes to blend in with the natives....even though it IS HOT AS HELL up there right now. -finish portfolio
--it look so simple to write it down, and yet......-print portfolio @ kinkos
---i just saw all of you cringe...but it's only a test print of the layout/spelling/size/etc....DO NOT DESPAIR...i have talked to john wheeler[you all know him as the god of portfolio paper & printing suggestions] and i will be adjusting the printing status accordingly!! =)-finally email Keith Kaseman my project since i have done everything within my power to log on to upenn's exclusive student drive and upload my freakin project....GOOD LORD JUST MAKE IT WORK ALREADY!!!!-
-[check!! it's done]-call a cab for a ride to the airport
-[ssshhhh....it's a surprise....sort of....] pick up a b-day gift for abby!!
why? because i said so!!! don't worry kids...it's almost friday!!!
EVERYBODY'S WORKING FOR THE WEEKEND....
ok..not everybody...at least i would hope not...just me myslef and i!!
good weekend too...
one good deed deserves a celebrity: apparently this is the theme in post-katrina new orleansthe most recent fascination: brad pitt---hosting and apparently personally judging the architecture competition for a sustainable new orleans rebuilding--next week sometime i guess
so i guess verderber got his wish...
hey kids!!!
just remember that the fourth of july is not only about our independence from the british colonies...
it's also about fireworks, barbecues and drinking yourself retarded!! =)
i'm hosting a mini-shin-dig tonight myself...so EAT, DRINK, & BE MERRY!!!
